Lyrics from genius
Why this song? ▼
I like the melody, especially the way it starts with the music box. And I do like the lyrics esp the chorus. It's a sad and nostalgic song to me since I'm in my late 20s, having lived in my own place for some years. My relationship with my family is kinda complicated but despite it all, my anxieties around our futures only seem to grow. sorry lol just basically i like it because i can kinda relate to it.
My first instrument
Was a toy music box my father brought back from a business trip
The first typewriter I laid hands on
Was the one he would spend late nights in his study typing away at
Yes, inside all of my talents
The youth that he forfeited for them
Is still breathing
We were three siblings, my brother and sister were only a year apart
They'd fight incessantly
And me, the youngest child, would constantly turn our place upside down
I can understand the scowl on my father's face
In our home, silence was as sacrеd as rice
Now
Even in happy times
Thе silence of an empty spot is louder than laughter
The last time I was in his arms, I thought to myself
Even heaven ages
I don't like who I've become
I don't know who I've become
Just because I'm me
I'm lonely
The only one who understands me
The only one who comforts me
There is no one left
Lonely, oh
Sometimes I remember
The smell of coal in a tiny basement home
Our family of four's first shelter
Didn't even have a window and we dreamed in darkness
But it was the only time we were under one blanket
My dad would always walk faster than the rest of us
But now his steps are getting slower
"Are you eating well?"
"Are you staying healthy?"
My mother's worrying haven't decreased
And my younger brother who would wait at home alone scared
Is now the head of a family
He's got a daughter he's crazy over
He probably understands our parents better than me now
One family has now become three
And the family is growing bigger
But the time we have left together may be shorter than the time we had
And even those times may be taken up by regret
I don't like who I've become
I don't know who I've become
Just because I'm me
I'm lonely
The only one who understands me
The only one who comforts me
There is no one left
Lonely, oh